So far...

So I am really trying to get the hang of the eating clean thing... and Im not trying to rush it.  I know one of my MAIN goals... NO FAST FOOD.  Fast food, especially McDonalds and Taco Bell, is my down fall.  Seriously, when I was counting calories and would burn 1200-1500 calories from doing Pump then Combat back to back I would think of what I could eat from Taco Bell or McDonalds!!  Well no wonder I am not losing anymore huh?!?!  But before that.. when I was focusing on WHAT I was eating, not how many calories were in it, I was dropping weight like crazy!!

So today I went grocery shopping... I got A LOT of fruit and veggies and whole grain stuff.  Oh and lots of chicken.  I love chicken lol! 

Tomorrow is weigh in with my ww girls... so I will do measurements and all for the contest also so that it will be easier for me to remember to track and all. 

Life-  Life is crazy right now.  So many things I am starting to realize... like this is not how its supposed to be... and that I deserve better.

For tomorrow...

I'm not usually one to wait till the next day... But I'm on my way to the in laws so today will have to be an exception.

A couple days ago I broke down and bought Tosca Reno's book "The Eat Clean Diet Recharged". Ironically in my Oxygen magazine they have a contest that goes along with the same book... And yes I am entering. The winner gets an Oxygen spread, $3000, and a one hour consult with Tosca herself!!!! I am SO excited. Ok maybe not... Bc I have to send in before pics.... Scary!!

I am going to track my results during the contest time... And I'm sure I will continue after. I know what needs to be done... Now it's time to do it!!!

Hey remember me??

Yea me either...

So where have I been? Well not at the gym!! Ugh!! I did one of the things I swore I'd never let happen... I let a man bring me down. This isn't just any man... He is my fiancee/baby daddy/love of my life. The past month has been absolutely MISERABLE. Thats no excuse for my slacking though. I am supposed to be the pusher, the motivator, and the one who inspires others. But now my Bodypump certification is in limbo... I have to speak to my group fit mgr tomorrow. I have got to remember one of my all time favorite quotes. "Don't give up what you in the long run for what you want in the moment". In the moment I want to be depressed and feel sorry for myself and sit around drinking beer and eating chips and salsa... But in the long run I wAnt to be a Les Mills Bodypump instructor and Bodycombat instructor. Hell I'd even like to be a personal trainer. I can't give that up. When all else fails I have MYSELF and MY dreams and MY goals!!

My new favorite quote..

This is exactly how I feel this week and what I will keep telling myself all week and through this weekend:


‎"There's only one way to succeed in anything and that is to give everything." - Vince Lombardi


Am I prepared for this bodypump training right now... no not so much lol.  I will be ok though.  I am going to prepare myself as much as I can... I will have the DVD for the new release (which is what I will be training on) tomorrow, so at least I won't go in blind sided.  I am scared... but thank goodness I have a lot of support... especially from the group fitness team at MAC (ironically not even the gym I am doing this through!).  They all want to see me succeed though... and failure is just not an option.  Had I had more time to think about this I prob would have skipped pump training this go round... but it is what it is and theres not going back now!!!

Food so far:
This morning I was running late (its monday lol) so I just had a protein shake.  For lunch I had tuna with a little teeny weeny bit of mayo, mustard, an egg, and pickles.  Snack is peanut butter on a slice of wheat bread.  Im out of bananas.  :(  Dinner is salsa chicken... yum!!  Food will be pretty boring this week... I need to "lean" out some before pump training.  I dont want to go in swollen or bloated or anything like that... so very few carbs and lots of protein!  :) 

My workout schedule this week:
Monday: Pump (am), Combat (am)
Tuesday: Practice pump, run (am)
Wednesday: Pump (am), practice pump (am), practice pump (pm)
Thursday: pump (am), practice pump (am), combat (pm)
Fri, sat, sun: pump training

During the day this week I am working on push ups.  I need to be able to do them ALL on my toes.  I will find out tomorrow how many exactly that is.  I definitely do not want to go into training having to do the pushups on my knees!  :/

Ok so I need a goal...

I have gained.  I don't even know how much bc my scale is broken but I know I have.  I am considering tracking again but I don't think thats my problem.  My problem is the past 2 weeks between fashion shows, parties, and weddings I have binged.  Lots of eating and lots of drinking.  I can tell you even if I was still counting calories I would not have been counting those days anyway.  I know what is good and what is bad and what I need to do... so I think Im going to skip another week of counting and go from there.

I need some new goals though.  My ultimate weight loss goal is to get to 125 lbs.  And of course there is my Saints jersey goal... I need something else though.  Maybe a short term weight goal?  The other day I was thinking 15 lbs by Halloween... So that gives me about 10 wks from my next WI.  So 1.5 lbs/week... seems doable to me!!  Oh and here is one of the costumes I am loving right now... and yes I am serious!! :)

Halloween has always been one of my FAVORITE holidays.  Its always a big thing down here in New Orleans.  I have already been invited to about 5 Halloween events... they range from club events to house parties.  This Halloween will be even better though... I get to take Olivia trick or treating (not in that costume obviously haha!!).  I can NOT wait!!!  I have no clue what I want to dress her up as... something super cute and adorable though!  :)

What have I gotten myself into?!

Les Mills BodyPump Instructor Training.  Thats what I got myself into!!  Im trying not to doubt myself... but I dunno... Im stressing over it more minute by minute!  If I had like a month or more to prepare myself Id be ok... but um yea I have a WEEK!  Training starts Fri sept 3 and continues through until Saturday.  Each day is 9 long hours of training.  If this were for BodyCombat I would be ok.. but BodyPump worries me.  Its not my "thing".  Combat is my thing... but I figured Pump would help open some doors.... thats if I even pass the training (which considering I paid $335 for it I seriously hope I do lol!).  Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy Pump, I am just not obsessed with it like I am Combat.

I know I am outgoing enough to teach a class... and I am pretty sure I could be decent with the choreography... I just really hope I can hang with pump.  So this whole week will be all about practicing pump starting tomorrow morning.  For the next 9 days I will be eating, breathing, and sleeping BodyPump.

If I pass and do get certified this will open a lot of doors though.  My foot will be in the group fitness instructor world, and even better the Les Mills Fitness Instructor World.  Many people ask my why I don't get into fitness as my career... Im seriously considering it.  I know I am definitely getting my ACE certification for personal trainer.  Its something I originally wanted to do for knowlefge... but hey it can also be a good back up plan right?!  The legal field is hard to get into right now... my Dad is a lawyer and he can't even help me lol.

Hopefully tonight I can calm myself down about the whole Pump thing and go into class tomorrow morning ready to get in the mindframe I need to be in.  I know if I go into it like this I will fail.  I don't take failure very well!

New... Random goal...

So... I am a DIE HARD Saints fan.  I was a Saints fan before they were good lol.  I love football.  Love love loveeeee football.  I can NOT wait for it to start (preseason this Sunday woot!!)  Well, last year I ordered a Drew Brees jersey... a REAL one with the super bowl patch.  Thing is they don't have the REAL jearseys (sewn on patches etc) in women's... only men and kids.  Well the smallest men's jersey comes down to my knees and past my elbows.  So I ordered a large in kids (same size I used to get  in the "fake" jerseys).  Well, I guess since its differnt material they don't stretch as much and the jersey did not fit.  I never returned it.  Tonight I tried it on again... before I could not even get it on... today I got it on but it was snug.  So by the time the REAL season begins I want to be able to wear my REAL jersey.  I will update with a pic for the first real Saints game!  Here are pics from tonight.. and just a note... my hair is wet and Im in PJ shorts lol...